Wow. I think this is the longest I've gone between posts since I started blogging.
"So where the heck have you been?" you wanna know.
I've been trying to find a creative or witty way to explain the many ways that the last few weeks of the decade sucked.
Normally I'm not one to make New Year's resolutions. Yet, it was New Year's Eve when I came to the realization that I was depressed. And that nothing happening around me was going to change in the very near future... including the fact that the only reason my toilets flush is because we have a hose (seen in pic) running from my in-law's house next door.
(Looking at the attached pic now, I'm actually laughing at myself. I had thrown a Santa hat on my autumn scarecrow instead of actually taking it down and/or putting up more appropriate decorations. Apparently I was a little overwhelmed!)
So for the past couple of weeks my focus has been to (once again) shift my focus from letting everything on the outside control how I feel on the inside... to the reverse. I've made the conscious choice to shift my internal lens from seeing all the negativity, to projecting positivity.
I am officially walking away from the slippery slope. Okay, so it's more like turning a bus around but you get the idea.
This is my "three step process" for getting that bus of negativity to drive the other way:
1. Internal --> transform thoughts, feelings, words, feeding only positive energy
2. External --> engage in healthy, healing actions
3. Support --> ask for help, whether it's feedback, physical assistance, accountability or just the time and space for #1 & 2 to be possible
I'm thinking of changing the caption on my blog header to "Practicing what you preach can be a real biotch." The truth is that sometimes I just have to write about this stuff so I remember to do it.
Life balance isn't about juggling and controlling everything in your world.
It's about balancing your internal well-being so that you can handle anything which gets thrown at you.
Be well and MOVE THAT BUS!