It's just one week before Christmas and I haven't even begun my shopping yet. I'm not sure that this sets the best example of "life balance strategy" for y'all, but it is what it is.
Oh - I'm feeling the holiday spirit and all that. The tree is up. The house is decorated. I've been singing Christmas carols in the shower.
The Elf on the Shelf, has been flitting about most faithfully each and every night. (Though I must note that I'm slightly afraid for Clyde's life. My four year old son "Spiderman" learned that the Elf is planning to send a behavior report back to Santa. I overheard something along the lines of, "You better tell him I was nice or else.")
It's just the whole gift buying thing which is tripping me up for some reason. This has never happened before. I usually love to shop. To think of creative present ideas. To give meaningful (or at least fun) gifts to the people I love so dearly.
So why can't I get my (decreasingly blumpy) arse to the mall or even Amazon.com?
Let's explore some theories:
1. Shopping isn't as much fun when money is tighter than the pants on an '80's hair band. (I just realised that there are youngsters reading this that may not understand the reference. See... way back in the olden days... ya know, the 1980's... there were these groups of rock-n-roll musicians who had really big hair and really tight pants...and... ugh, forget it.)
2. Too much tragedy, not enough comedy. This has been a tough year for crap like people dying in tragic ways and families suffering incredible losses. I'm having a really hard time shaking this feeling that "stuff" so doesn't matter. (Sorry, no funny quip to add to this one. Buzz kill, I know.)
3. There's no tangible gift that says what I really want to convey. (I guess I'm a little stuck on #2.) As I think of the people I usually enjoy shopping for most, all I want to do is just hold them tight, tell them how much I love them and promise that we will never, ever leave each other. And then, find some miracle that makes that promise truly possible. The Snuggie comes close, but ya know, just...not...quite...IT.
4. The Lazy Objection. As I've written before, the most common reason people have for not doing things they need to do in their lives is,"I don't have time." It's the "no budget" of life balance. Of course we have time. It's just how we choose to spend and prioritize that time.
Still, I guess I could blame not shopping on P90X, my crazy work schedule, the house, the laundry, illness, writing, other "to do's", yada, yada, yada. You would totally buy that, right? You are SO easy. And I love you for it. Even though it's a
5. Be --> Do --> Have. I've been waiting for this desire to shop til I drop to come from some deep place of inner motivation. Maybe I'll just wake up and feel it in my bones, "Today is the day!" Reality check. Christmas is next week and that vibe hasn't happened yet. It might be time to make an exception and hope that if I just do it, I'll eventually be in the mood.
Like that first bathroom break on a long, cold New Year's Eve, I've just got to break the seal.
Wish me luck. I'll let you know how it goes.