It's the eve of my last day of the Quantum Wellness Cleanse. Home stretch...
When this journey started three weeks ago I wasn't sure I'd make it. And if I did, I knew that mostly likely I'd go back to consuming the Big 5 (caffeine, alcohol, sugar, gluten, animal products) after I'd done my time. Perhaps in moderation, but pretty much business as usual.
Lately I've been giving a lot more thought to the concept of "conscious eating" as Kathy Freston describes it.
In the process, I've been reading gruesome accounts of animals -- chickens and pigs in particular -- being tortured in unbelievable ways as a common practice. Actually, the word "torture" really doesn't even come close to describing it.
Like most people I guess I never really thought about it before. It's just food. I happen to have the good fortune of being higher on the food chain. Chickens, pigs and other animals are here to ensure continuance of the higher thinking species to which I belong. It's the natural course of things. Animals suffer so humans can live.
That was then. Here's where I'm at now... or what I'm pondering, anyway.
1. How can I not think about it? I keep reading chapters 19 & 20 of the book over and over. Kathy talks about how much thought and effort we put into our decisions as a consumer. House, car, clothes, etc.. . Still, "... you consume more in the form of food than you do everything else combined. Yet, oddly enough, the vast majority of us are deeply disconnected from our food. We don't know where it came from, what went into it... or how the animals were treated or killed... ."
What I put into my body to sustain and energize my life is probably the most important decision I have to make as well as the most frequent. Can I really go back to the perspective, "Yeah, whatever - it's just food"?
2. Now that I am thinking about it, do I care? As I become aware of the suffering and the scientific proof that these animals feel pain and fear, is it enough to make me not participate in what most people consider "the natural course of things"?
I actually think I do care. I know that this is not a popular belief but there's a part of me which now believes that I'm participating in that suffering by eating those animals.
Yet, I can't pretend to be completely pious. The truth is that if I really needed to eat meat in order to survive, I would. If it were the choice between me and "this little piggy," the pig dies.
The thing is though, I don't need to eat meat. I'm discovering so many other options which not only satisfy my hunger and my nutritional needs, but which I truly enjoy. During the time I've refrained from eating meat, I've felt so much healthier... physically and spiritually.
Once again, I'm surprised by what I've gained during this experience. I've found something else I may not want to give up.
Tomorrow is my last official day of quantum wellness cleansing. I'll let you know what my plan is from there...